A 'weighty' issue

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Today little Finn is 11 weeks old.

11 weeks ago my ol' body was the size of a house.

BUT - 11 weeks ago I thought I looked FAB, although I was having trouble walking, and climbing the stairs was close to impossible!

I was rocking lycra, tight was right and I was proud of my bump-o-rama.

Today i feel chubby, wobbly quite frankly a bit ugg.

Weird isn't it?

Don't get me wrong, I am so proud of what this body has achieved.

To grow little humans inside me - wow - out there! That's pretty cool.

It's just, I've never had trouble with my weight before. So 'clothes as camouflage' is new to me.

I want to embrace my wobbly bits, really I do, and love this stretched, tired, scarred bod.

But, I also want to feel like 'me' again.

I think things will start coming together once I have had my surgery. I have a date booked for it, 25th June. Already feeling a little freaked out! But it will be fine, fine.

Also, when I stop breast feeding in a few months I will begin to feel a bit more normal, as right now I am food every 3 hours, 24/7.

Oh and getting some decent sleep will help!

I am just in a bit of a funk at the mo.

I am determined to be kinder to myself, as of right now.

The people who matter, Rich, Max & Finn, think I look great!

Truly, I am blessed beyond.

xxx